hearts will hold [details in the fabric]

maybe it's the weather, or this city, or the new year
that puts me in a very reflective place.

(or this perfect combination of sun & clouds on a saturday morning)

what are you afraid of?
when it comes to life and love, i think everyone is afraid of something.
some people are afraid of commitment, of getting attached, of getting hurt,
of loving and being loved.
and for the longest time, i didn't understand it.
i gave freely to those around me
- my love, affection, time, and consideration.

i wore my heart on my sleeve.
i still do.

and i believed that every experience is worthwhile,
that every mistake is a lesson learned,
and it all culminates to create character.

i still believe it,
kind of...

but i suppose, in a jaded way, these experiences have taught me about taking my heart off my sleeve, building my character in a way that creates independence and the freedom in being me.
my fear lies in making the wrong gamble. my sacrifices, vulnerability, consideration turning around and making a fool of me.
[that probably explains why i have a difficult time being patient and accepting that i need to wait, to know where i stand in the eyes and mind of another. that same impatience has led to impulsive decisions that created short-term solutions and temporary gratification.]

so all this time has been an ongoing lesson and reflection on living in the present instead of dreaming about the future.
of building & cultivating supportive/affirmative relationships,
taking advantage of opportunities for character growth,
and taking wise risks that will create something meaningful in the long run.

if it's a broken part, replace it

if it's a broken arm then brace it

if it's a broken heart then face it

are the details in the fabric (hold your own)

are the things that make you panic (know your name)
are your thoughts results of static cling? (go your own way)
and everything will be fine
everything
in no time at all
hearts will hold

this is not just tea, but a cup of wisdom.
"travel light, live light, spread the light, be the light"

ps.

[jan 18]

we just celebrated lambo's 2nd birthday
during a mini-vacation in fairfield

meet... emmanuel and gloria

as many of you know, my sister and her husband were in the process of adopting two children from ghana, africa.

they came home on monday and i was able to spend some time with them... they are AMAZING kids.

old friends, new places

friday night was my night off, so i thought it would be fun to call a few friends up for drinks.
we hit up neomeze in old town pasadena - i love this place! it was my second time here since ronnie's bday and definitely didn't disappoint.

after gathering inside and some brief introductions, we quickly came to the realization that i was among some my oldest (long time) friends.

fiona, vince, and joanne lee

it feels good to have that connection with people, and to know that they're still around after all these years of change, growth, and distance.

let's start with #1.
joanne lee and i have known each other since i was 5 and she was 3.
her mom helped my parents buy our house in san gabriel!

and here we are, 18 years later.
happy 21st, doll =)

#2 comes fiona. we've known each other for 11 years and she still makes me laugh.

#3 is vince. ironically. i always regarded him as one of my oldest friends.
we've been best friends for 9 years... and through everything, i think we're still best friends.

our girly drinks: carribean mojito, razzle, and melon margarita.
vince wasn't included. he got a beer.

and then this week, i hung out with tay-che... formerly yun-che, now known as taylor.
i call her tay-che.
sophisticated chicago girl now, no more short skirts and skin-revealing beach wear for her.
it feels good to grow up.




and to end this post,
here's a very entertaining video of henry at wokcano after neomeze on friday night.
enjoy! =]